I don’t know why I’m thinking about it now, but there’s this road up near Malibu that I can’t wait to go back to. But I can’t go back there now. I want to wait until I have the right camera equipment to go back there. It’s a place where the road takes you higher than the clouds and you can see the hilltops for miles around. I hope by then I have my new car too. So I can cruise down the road real fast and pray I don’t die so I can see this place again.
My photography isn’t dead. It’s just on hold for now because of college, living, and other expenses. I ask you, dear reader, to please be patient with me. There’ll be more photos to come :)
My prayers have been answered!
I don’t get financial aid, but I just got an email that awarded me the Middle Class Scholarship.
It’s little money, but it’s money.
And then I realize she’s nearly 400 miles away. And I can’t see that precious smile every day.
Not one person knows what I’d do just so I can see it again. Even she doesn’t know.
I’m in love with her smile. No. It’s much more complicated than that. Not how I love- no that’s simple. I’m talking about her smile. Her thought process before she knows she’s going to smile. That split second between her whole body knowing she’s going to smile and when she smiles. How her eyes open just a little bit wider because she realizes in that moment that she’s happy inside. Then the slow widening of her lips that reveals her joy. And how a moment afterwards her eyes slide down because she knows I’m looking. I love it. Because in that moment I realize how I want to be the one she can count on to make her happy.